By Kristina Evon
Those of you who have seen me working around the office for years have noticed that there is a little bit less of me than there used to be. It has taken me 4 long years of exercise and eating healthier to get to a point where most of the baby weight I gained during my two pregnancies has come off. I truly feel at times that I am still taking these steps toward being healthy one day at a time. I don’t consider myself finished, just a work in progress.
I recently had a major setback in my training which was completely mental in nature. I considered quitting it all. I was ready to throw my training of 3-4 times a week for four years out the window. I was ready to binge on carbs and sleep in every day. I had my excuses ready. I was hurt and angry and felt like a victim. I was ready to blame everyone but myself. I was being selfish and I didn’t care. This funk lasted five days.
On day six, I began thinking about my reasons for starting to exercise in the first place and the many ups and downs over those 4 years. The journey toward weight loss and fitness is truly a roller coaster and staying dedicated through the whole ride is the tough part. I realized that this was just another challenge and I was largely over-reacting to my own hang ups about who I was and how I was being perceived by others. I had to remember that I was doing this for myself. I want to be a positive role model for my children and not throw in the towel when things are tough. I want to own my words when I advise patients about exercise and eating right. I want to be a strong mom that can run and play and keep up with her kids.
I lost the excuses, I lost my false pride and I lost the perception that anyone else was REALLY going to care about my health as much as I do. No one was going to hold my hand and drag me back to the gym. A chef was not going to appear in my kitchen. I had to do it myself. I had to keep doing my best no matter what. Most importantly I lost the fear that I may not deserve to be everything I want to be. I’ve found that I do deserve it…. And so do YOU.